Life

Wow it's really been a while since I wrote anything here huh.  Does anyone even read these anymore? Haha.  Well if you do thanks for sticking around.  I started this blog to work out feelings, talk about experiences, get my creative side out there.  For the most part, considering i'm quite introverted, I did kinda well I guess.  Feel free to correct me.

Truth is the last couple of months so much has been going on that I either couldn't, or didn't know how to word it all.....which is the lie I keep telling myself to not write I suppose.  The truth is I guess i've lost my reason to write.  It's tough getting and maintaning an audience (especially when you suck at it) but I guess I just didn't want to sit here and cry.

This blog above all was to encourage free speech, expression of creativity and eventually to be used as a platform for people to voice their opinions.  Big plans for a small blog eh?

Lately I feel empty, broken.  Everyday the same old thing, get up, put a smile on my face, make jokes, mask the sadness, the emptiness, and everyday  I end up where I began.  Not much to look forward to the next day, not much to expect, no hope to have and no motivation to drive me.

We're told so many fairy tales when we're young about how anything can be achieved and how the system works, you leave school you get a job and everything will be fine.  Only to find out that in truth the fairy tale is a lie.  School =/= job.  Job =/= happy. Truth is we go out into the world full of promise and expectations, only to be shut down at every angle.  I get that life is unfair.....I get that life will never be easy. The worst part is we as humans go out of our way to make it worse.  Not just for ourselves but for others.

Truth is as I write this I don't know what my future holds and honestly it scares me.